Why did I get a job???
1.) support Camden
2.) pay my bills that are adding up
3.) to have more money to put into my business
4.) to have gas to go anywhere
5.) to take Camden somewhere for his bday
6.) so I'm not bored out if my mind everyday
7.) to move out
8.) to get a new car
9.) to save money
10.) to take Camden overseas next summer
I have to remind myself of these things EVERYDAY. Because believe it or not the hours are hell on wheels and I never get to see Camden. I legit cried on the phone coming home from work the other day. I felt like the world's worst mom. I felt like I was not there for my son. And I needed a pep talk in order to get myself together. (Sidenote: it's a good feeling to have great people in your corner when you need it). I need someone to tell me that you have to do what you gotta do. Pray for better. Believe it will work out. Sometimes you have to grind in order to see the rewards. It won't always be this hard. Soon it will get better. Soon...everything on that list will show me why I had to do this.
It's hard not tucking him in every night, seeing him when he's home from school. It's hard just not being around him all the time. But he's about to be three in exactly a month. He needs the distance. He also needs to go to better school and start to be around kids more his age. Camden needs to leave the nest 😩😩! Lord that is scary. But it has to be done. I'm going to be ok. No more crying on my way home from work....I promise