Ok so I cried. Like a baby I cried. Legit tears and my world was completely crushed.
It was a typical day and me and camden had been busy as usual. I picked him up from daycare early and we went to the park. I could tell already that he was tired. Which was fine I just knew that I would have to put in some work after the park for him to remember how tired he was before hand. I get home and I allow him to watch a little TV for down time. I'm in the kitchen frying up some chicken when next thing I notice is camden is asleep. But not just asleep though. He has grabbed a blanket, pillow and basically put himself to bed.
Most parents would be thrilled. He's finally reached the stage where he can do it on his own. And for 15 seconds I was too. Looking at him like "AWWW my big boy". But then when those words left my lips, tears followed them. Just that morning camden looked at me and said "I'm going to get me something to eat". He returned with yogurt and pretzels. He literally had gotten his own afternoon snack without me. He now goes in the bathroom and brushes his teeth all by himself. We started this new thing that when I give him the go-a-head he can unbuckle himself in the car seat. Camden can pour his own juice, turn the tv on and off, and put his own clothes on. CAMDEN DOESNT NEED ME ANYMORE.
Am I being slightly dramatic? Of course I am. But that was the icing on the cake. He tucked himself in for a nap. I couldn't take it. I was crying. Looking at him and just crying. I couldnt and still can't face the reality that he wasn't my baby anymore. I text my mother to ask her if this was normal and she said yes. Which made me feel good. But I'm still sad. The day is fastly approaching when camden will be in the car at drop off for school, I'll turn to him and say "have a good day! Gimme kiss kiss" and he will say "come on ma! I'm not a baby anymore". It's sad just to think about it.
Today camden got in trouble. I don't even remember why. Trouble to him is me using my stern voice. But either way he hates getting in trouble. He looks up at me and goes "but mommy am I still your baby?" ..... That made my day. I will forever remember the days he yerned to be mommy's baby, on the days when he's mommy's man!