You wake up one day and your whole life is figured out. You know where you are going, what lies ahead of you and the direction your headed in. Then you close your eyes and wake up again...and poof! Different life completely!
Tonight I feel like I have completely lost myself. I was in this great relationship, had the best job, a lot of money in the bank, a church full of people that supported me, and a family I could count on. Then I wake up and POOF!
Where did it all go?! Who's left for me? It's just me! I'm here alone, with a helpless child. I have the two of us to care for, and I have no idea where to pick up and begin. It's like I woke up in desert storm. No idea what to do next, but I have to do something. Smh!
Then I run and pray. Thinking that will make it better. Well I know it will. But right now it just brings everything to surface, it just reminds me of the drama that's in front of me. I'm full of drama. Where do I begin!?
I have no clue. And the funny thing is, I'm not depressed. Do I miss somethings, yea! Do I wish life didn't take a big huge turn to the left, of course. But I'm not pissed about it. I just don't know what to do from here. There are those days I truly miss my old life more than I can stand. And other days when I don't care. But what to do, what to do! I have no clue.
I'm at a concert right now. And all I can do is think about my ex. Smh! So I decided to write! Well here are my feelings. Grammar mistakes and all. No proof reading needed. Oh well! ✌🏼️