I’m having writers block. I have so much I want to say but it doesn’t seem to come out right. Or it either doesn’t seem important.
On one side, I am very upset about lies that were spoken today and the friend that I had to cut off in the process. Not really upset with the cutting the friend off part or the lie. More so that I allowed this to happen. I don’t know why I keep trusting people. I honestly feel like the only people I need and can trust are my family. I hate that I continue to try with these others. Every time it seems to prove that it’s impossible for me. And I say for me because I have just come to grips with the fact that either I can’t pick good friends or I’m not meant to have them at all. Either way I am at my wits end with the whole thing so consider me friendless!
Then there was the stupid doctor’s office visit that I had to make yesterday. To fix yet another one of their mistakes. Which I hate when I have to get black on people. I honestly love Camden’s pediatrician. She does a great job and I like that she is all extra earthy. BUT…..if their office goes one more time without returning my phone calls I’m going to have to take him elsewhere. This was the third time that I needed to call them for them to fix one of their mistakes and NEVER got a call back. I was so frustrated. I literally yelled at them until they fixed it. Which I do not recommend because when it was all said and done I made a complete fool out of myself and even though they fixed what I needed I was totally embarrassed.
I don’t even know where to begin in this regard. Because I don’t feel like there was anything done wrong per say. Sometimes things come across or are said differently than we anticipate. Believe it or not, not everything said that needs to be said comes easy. There are topics and people that can make telling them a thing the hardest thing ever. Have you ever been so sure about something and wanted to do the right thing? Then when the time comes you feel like you have to take baby steps to admit it or sugar coat it? I guess this situation just made me feel like ‘why not just put it all out there’. As much as people hate the truth, the fact is the truths always taste better than the sugar coated version.