I get so comfortable. So much so that I don't even notice. Little things here and there might spark a rise out of me or get my attention but for the most part when I'm comfortable, I act as such. I don't go out of my way, I don't mix it up, I don't try anything new. When I'm comfy, I'm complacent.
Sunday I noticed I got comfy on God. There were things (little things) that I knew I needed to work on in order to grow my relationship to the next level. But I was so comfortable with where I was that I didn't work on anything. I just let those issues sit there and grow. When I first got saved I was so excited to live right and be like Christ. So I gave up a few things. The easy things! The things that might not seem easy but I dealt with the issues that were truly hurting me. Then the little things, the things that weren't life threatening, I held on to those. Because I thought "oh these aren't that serious".
But here I am years later. Trying to figure out why I feel like God has gotten comfy with me. And on Sunday I got my answer. "Erica you sat down on me! You have been playing church for months and expect me to bless you". It's not God who isn't there with me. He's right here all the time. It's just that I've gotten so use to grace and mercy, that I've forgotten that faith without work is dead.
I've been holding on to my issues because God was still blessing me inspite of. But now he's saying "fix your mess if you want me to take you to your expected end". So I've decided to give up everything. I want to live perfectly. I want what's due to me and the life I was promised. Sunday's message sparked something inside of me. Pushed me out of my comfort zone.
Sometimes it's seems like we have forever to make certain changes in life. And even when we desire to change things we don't! Not because we don't want to, but because of who it might effect. I'm tired of living for other people. Tired of not being the Erica I want to be because others won't like it. My desire is to please God. My desire is to change the world. I want to live a righteous life. I don't want to be comfortable in God, I want to be SUPER in him.